Mommy's Angels - By Jessi L. Crawford

Undying love, Unshakeable faith
Big little hugs of the tightest embrace

Heart melting smiles, Giggles of joy

The sound of pitter patter running across the floor

Twinkles in the eyes, Dimples on the cheeks

Chubby little fingers grabbing tighter on to me

Squeals of laughter, Tears of pain

Little misshapes through out the day

Bed time stories, Lullaby songs

Tucked in deep and fast asleep

Mommy's little angles

That I love with all my might

Makes all the hassle worth the fight

When I see them sleeping at night

Jobless - A little changes to begin with...

I am jobless as of 30 September 2010.

Not that I am going to be a stay at home mum (yes thats the new word for housewife! If you still do not know) but rather trying to find a 5 days work week job. Although for my previous job, I only need to work alternate Saturdays and it will be half day but for that half days, my plan and routine for the boys will be ruined. I had tried not working any Saturdays during a month with all my OT time off and for the month, my quality time that I spent on my boys was so precious. We had breakfast together then I will give Kiern a bit of tuition which he will give his full attention etc and the routine was understood by both boys. The routine gone haywire when I went back to work on a Saturdays. Thats when it make me consider about 5 days work job.

I will be going for a interview on friday, working location for that will be fantastic! As it is only 1 mrt stop away from Khatib =) See how it goes, wish me luck!

Something is brewing...

Been really busy recently cos something is brewing...

Hopefully will get lots of support and I will succeed =)

Things that warm my ♥

It warms my heart when Keon walks into my room and snuggle under my blanket in the middle of the night and sleeps beside me all night long.

It warms my heart when Kiern offers to help me carry things when he sees that I am carrying his didi.

It warms my heart when Keon asks for his Ferrero Rocher, he will make sure to take one more as he said "For Gor Gor"

It warms my heart to see Keon covering with blanket and Kiern was the one who placed the blanket on him.

It warms my heart when after work I saw a moody Keon walking out of a room, only to see me and gave me a mega smile with sparkle in his eyes running towards me and shout "mummy!"

It wrams my heart when Keon kisses me out of the blue.

It warms my heart when Kiern always help to clear the mess that his didi created

It warms my heart when I starts nagging that I am tired and Kiern said "Mummy you are tired because you need to work, you need to carry heavy things, you need to cook, you need to clean the house and take care of me and didi, right? It nearly made me cried to know that my 6 years old boy understands my love and effort. ♥♥♥

June School Holiday is ending soon...

June school holiday is coming to an end soon.

I have not get my chance to really spend quality time with Kiern and Keon yet so I am taking leave on 21 June and 22 June. Laoye and I had planned what to do.

Day 1, 19 June 2010:  Play Monopoly and go cycling during the day and dinner at clark quay with a stroll at Singapore River

Day 2, 20 June 2010: Kids Farm!

Day 3, 21 June 2010: All shall coop at home and watch DVD/Blu Ray. Maybe we can bake gingerbread man as well =)

Day 4, 22 June 2010: Just me and the boys. Actually still thinking of what to do...

Hope everything will turn out well!

Preparation for Primary 1

Kiern is going to Primary 1 next year. Its another major milestones for a Singaporean kid. Me as a mother naturally is excited and worried at the same time.

Excited - Its alway happy to know that your own child has progress well and grow well to the next stage of his life. I am excited to see Kiern going to a bigger school, to make new friends, to wear new school uniform & shoes and to be independent. I am always on a look out on when will Primary 1 registration starts. Even to the extend where I am counting down to July because thats when registration will starts for the Phrase 1 (fyi, Kiern will be in Phrase 2A2). Excitement did not catch up on Kiern, he is still oblivious of what is going to happen next year.


Worried - Is Kiern ready for Primary 1? Things that makes me worry:

• In pre-school, all their uniform shorts are elastic band kind whereas in Primary school, its uniform shorts are with hook/button and zipper. Kiern is so used to just pulling his pants down when he wants to pee. Is he gonna wet his pants because he is unable to pull down his pants as easily?

• Kiern got big "open" ears which he inherited from me. I do not have any major problem because as a girl, I have my long hairs to cover my ears but for Kiern, he can't hide. Will other kids laugh at his ears and make him feels upset?

• Kiern is going to buy his own food and drinks when he goes to Primary 1. Do he understand the concept of money values?

• For all who knows Kiern, he do not speak mandarin and lately it seems that he detest the language. Is he able to cope the Chinese lessons? 

I am trying to help Kiern do some preparations before he goes to Primary school mainly; I had tasked LaoYe to teach Kiern how to unzip or take out his pants when he needs to go to the loo. Come June, I will be giving Kiern allowances to teach and let him understand the concept of money. As for Chinese, I am still working hard on it. I am teaching him Chinese for the past few months and also he been attending Chinese tuition on every Sat. I did see his improvement, now he can regconise and read some Chinese words but the problem is he do not know how to use it or phase it. Heard that Berries (a Chinese enrichment center) is good, I will be enrolling him into it as Berries are teaching Chinese in a fun and loving way, hopefully he will starts to like to learn Chinese.

P/S: I have changed my blog layout and there is no tag board anymore. Please click on "Any Comments?" to comment my blog. Thanks!

Regrets...

Have you done something that make you regret?

For me, now I am living with regrets that I have not done something...

Hardworking Parents

Still could not find a time to change my blogskin, shall make do with a change of color.

For the past weeks, I have been really worried about Kiern. He is going to primary 1 next year and it been stressing ME! Yes Me! If you starts to think that by stressing myself up, i am also stressing Kiern then you are WRONG!

I am not a kiasu kind of mum. Kiern had never attended any enrichment class for his first 5 years of his life. He just attend as per usual kids do, 3 years old he was in a half day child care then he proceed to PCF nursery and first half of K1. I guess the only kiasu thing I do for him is to change him from PCF to a private kindergarten. That's all. I am stressing because when I see how most of his age kids are doing much more than him or able to do much more better than him then I start to wonder, is it because I am too relax in terms of parenting? The fact is no matter how I am not kiasu, society has change! We are no longer at the era whereby our parents just make sure we go to school when we reach 4 years old then we just proceed as it is till we graduate. At that time parents are not so kiasu because most of them simply are not kiasu and the society is not so competitive. Now in this 21st century where all living standard and expenses are going up, parents are getting more and more kiasu. So imagine if you were in my shoes where you are still lay back but other parents are putting their kids in enrichment class even when their kids are only 3 months old. When your kid starts schooling then he/she will realize everyone is ahead of him/her then in turns he/she will not do well in school and how will the poor kid feels? Is the kid lazy? Is the kid stupid? The answer is NO, its just that others are doing better than that poor kid.

Just the other day, I was telling laoye, nowadays parents need to be hardworking, no longer is the kids that need to be hardworking. Last time, our parents could just tell us, "you must study, you must be hardworking." Now? We parents cant just say that to our kids, we must teach the kids since young, some do flashcard, some cultivate their kids reading since young, some have to sit down with their kids and check their homework. If you fail to do so, the consequences you shall bear. So the conclusion is... if you want your child to perform well in school, you have to be hardworking and discipline to teach your child daily. I was a lazy mum who will watch tv when i finished my work, I was a laid back mother who dun bother much about my boys education but now I have to change. To change for my boys? Or to change for the society? Frankly, I do not know. At least I want to change to starts teaching my boys everyday so that they wont feel stress or lose out when they go to primary 1.

P/S: A light note to this post.

"Me: *sigh* nowadays parent have to be hardworking, no longer is children need to be hardworking

Laoye: what's make you think so?

Me: Last time, when a kid do well, we say he/she very hardworking. now if a kid do not do well is because the parent not hardworking enough. Nowadays parents need to spend so much time and money to guide their children. If they dun do so then their child also wont perform well.

laoye: true true

Me: so you shall be a hardworking father to work as much as you can so that you can earn lots of money and i shall be the hardworking mother to teach your sons.

laoye: you only thinks of my money right?!

Me: Yes! I want my miu miu or chanel 2.55 bag *big grin*"

Need a facelift...

To my blogspot,

I know i haven been updating as often as i should and that's because I been wanting to give you a facelift.

So please bear with me while i see what i can do to make you more attractive.

xoxo,
Jer

FTWM vs SAHM

FTWM = Full Time Working Mother

SAHM = Stay At Home Mum

This have been my dilemma for the past one month. I enjoyed working but my kids are at the stage where they need me. Keon is in his terrible 2 stage where he is throwing his temper most of the time, Kiern is going to be in K2 next year and after which he needs to go primary 1 which i felt that he wasnt ready for it.

Laoye is asking me to stay at home too as his job takes his time away from the kids quite a lot, he felt that one of us should stay at home and be with the kids and that person of course is me.

The reason that i chose to work is to provide for my parents, i always felt that i should have done much more as a daughter so working allows me to give them money to help ease their financial burden.

The reason that i want to be sahm is of cos, my boys! I wanted to be there to guide them in their this stage of life, i wanted to cook for them, to tell bedtime story to them every night.

gosh! If only i could work from home!

It's been so long since my last post!

It's a good 2 months since i last updated my blog.

Have been really busy with work and even if I have free time, it's always spend with my babies or doing household chores.

Keon is now 17 months old. Next month he be ready for childcare centre. Have been hunting for childcare centre around my area, will be checking out for more details on those short-listed childcare centre. At this stage, Keon is very active and naughty. I am trying to discipline him because he likes to do things his way and nobody discipline him if I am working, reason being he is the king in my in laws house. This always make me guilty for not being there for him, to teach him. haiz.. parents are not easy to be.

As for Kiern, he is into drawing nowadays and he is pretty good at it. We are trying to enrol him for piano lesson. I have left my contact with a teacher but waiting for piano teacher to get back to me.

No photos to update cos lately been so busy, that's how busy i am. haiz...

Kiern the Little Grown Up

Time flies... yes time flies sooo fast.

My Kiern gonna be 5 years old soon. He still look like a kid to me but the way he talk remind me that he is growing.

He now talks like a little grown up and I find it fascinating!

Conversation 1
While going out shopping, Laoye was very angry with Kiern because he cant keep his eyes off toys, tv etc in the mall that made him cant keep up with us.
Laoye: I am very angry with you today. Why cant you just follow us?
Kiern: I also very very very angry with you. Why you dont follow me?
Me: Kiern, papa is angry because you keep stopping to watch tv and dun want to walk.
Kiern: I also angry with him. You can wait for a minute, when I'm finish, we can go.
*At that point of time, it made me realised, we got no right to be angry with him. He is right, why must the kid be the one to follow us, adult pace, and why not the other way round? Since we are in the mall then what are we rushing at? It also made me realised how fast our Singapore life pace are, at times it will be nice to slow down our pace and look at the surrounding just like Kiern did.


Conversation 2
Kiern unintentionally made Keon falls.
Me: You cannot scold, beat or snatch things from didi. He is still a baby, he dun understand many things because he is learning. You as a kor kor must teach him nicely like a teacher just like how your teacher teaches you.
After a while, I scolded Keon for climbing up a chair.
Kiern: Mummy you cannot scold didi! He dun understand what you were saying. He is just a baby, you cannot scold him, you must teach him.

Conversation 3
The maid put many toys into the playpen when Keon was in there.
Kiern: Auntie! You cannot put so many toys into the playpen, later didi will knock his head!

Conversation 4
The maid never cut his noodle
Kiern: Auntie, why you never cut the mee for me? Like that it is very difficult for me to chew!

Conversation 5
The maid forgot to switch off the toilet light which is in the noon.
Kiern: Auntie, why you never switch off the toilet light? Now still got sun and nobody is in there!
The maid dun understand what he says.
Kiern: Auntie, I asked you to switch off the light, why you still never switch it off?!

Conversation 6
Mother in law forgets to cut apple for him which she promised him that she will do it.
Kiern: auntie, make milk for ah ma.
Mil: why make milk for me?
Kiern: because ah ma is getting old.

Conversation 7
Just happen today, when we came back home. After I bath and changed him.
Kiern whispered: Mummy i think we need to go mama( aka granny) house.
Me: go mama house for what?
Kiern still whispering: becos we need to take the cake, is yiyi birthday today, remember?
Me: No yiyi birthday is on friday.
Kiern still whispering: maybe we can buy the cake first and put it in the fridge.
Me: why must buy and put it in the fridge, her birthday is on friday.
Kiern: Then you must remember to buy the cake becos is yiyi birthday.
Me: why are you whispering? Is this a surprise?
Kiern still whispering: yes its a surprise, must buy the cake and put it in the fridge.
Me: ok ok........

Dangerous Keon

More Pics From Jorel's Party

New Job New Role New Changes...

Haven been blogging due to work.

Yes I finally started working!!!

I went for interview on 12 June and started working on 15 June.

I went interview for Customer Service cum Course co-ordinator position. Life at work is busy but not stressful. My 2 boys are of cos at home with mother-in-law and maid but i gonna do without a maid soon, going to put Keon to infant care cos too many maid problems!!!

People at work are fun! Shortly I gonna change my job scope le or should i said i already slowly moving to the other job scope, most people in the company said is "promotion" even one joked that "work 1 month you promoted wah! then you work 12 months promote 12 times" but i wont said it is a promotion yet cos its still not official yet and by means of official is...... those who knows what happening will know what i means by "officially promoted" hehe. Anyway i'll be working as a PA, as 1 said "you are now under management". If the promotion is official then i would said luck really plays a big part, i really just so happen to be in a right place at a right time. I went in and was trained by this wonderful lady called Gracie. She worked as a PA as well as in charge of front counter. She taught me a lot but sad to say that she is leaving after this month so this is where I means that i happens to be at the right place and time. Yes! I be taking over her duty. I am still under her training, hopefully i wont let her down.

Party 8th Stop 24th May 2009 - Jorel's Party

Jorel's party was held at Eatzi@Yishun Safra. I was blown away when i reached the venue. The decor was very very nice. Eric (Jorel's dad) really put in a lot of effort to decorate the whole place! The theme of the party is carebear. The cake is very very nice too! Even the party favour was very well packed, it was a well-planned party! It was nice to spend a lovely afternoon in the party!

^See what i mean about the decor!!!

^Birthday boy & mummy

^Gift time!!!

^stylo milo Damien

^lil cutie pie Shaine

^charming prince Rayden

^carebear agar agar

^Cake bears cake and cup cakes!!!

^Happy family!

^and of cos group pic!

Party 6th & 7th Stop, 16 May 2009 - SMH May 2008 Bash & Shaine's Party

Imagine a place full of 30 babies and 30 set of parents? Chaotic? Yes! Fun? Yes!
May Bash was held at Gymboree Harbour Front. Finally get to see all the babies in real life which I used to see only in the forum. It's been a year, or should I say 2 year? Because we mummies started to chat about our babies since 2007 when one by one found out that we were pregnant and due date will be May 2008. That's how our journey began, the support, the knowledge, the ups and downs that we share, the never-ending "poison"... all happens in a world called cyber!

Although Keon is my 2nd child but I still learn lotsa of new things from the forum. The mummies in the forum are the one who keep me sane especially for the first 4 months of Keon life as I was alone to juggle 2 kids. It was no easy feat! I was crying everyday and sometimes when Keon cried I will hide in one corner and covered my ears and squat down and cried. Everyday I felt lousy because I cant seems to get things done and so worried that i do not feed keon well, worried about the quantity of milk i produce everyday. Wake up, pump milk, sterilize bottles, wash clothes, bf keon, bath for keon, bf Keon, wake Kiern up, cook lunch, make keon sleep, bath for kiern, feed kiern, bf keon, fetch kiern to school, play with keon, make keon sleep, pump milk, hang clothes, bf keon, go fetch kiern, all was done before 2.45pm... everyday my life is like that so many to do but so little time. So what i do when i think i going crazy? I rant in the forum and all these amazing ladies gave me advice, taught me how to produce more milk (yes we were like cow!), console me, supporting me thru their computer. Love them much!


^Getting all ready to go


^His glossy looking lips! Muacks!



^Keon enjoying himslelf


^ He saw one mummy, Mona, looking into the tunnel then he kpo, do the same, looking at Timothy



^Even Kiern is enjoying himself!


^Bubble time


^Greedy boy saw food and drinks, he got so excited!



^Cupcakes! It was yummy!


^Kiern ate Keon's cupcake!


Shaine's party was right after the May Bash. It was at Sentosa Trapizza. Keon, Kiern and I was the party crasher but we do enjoyed ourselves especially Kiern cos he made new foreigner friends while playing on the beach. Keon KO a little while after we arrived. Shaine is a sweet lil princess. She is very cute with her nice thick black hair!