New Blogskin

Hey hey.. Back with a new blogskin, nice right? Haha, at least to me is very nice. I like the simplicity. Exams finally over and finally I can rest but only for this week, next week need to go back to school for the java cert thingy. Think of it, I am a bit lazy to go and I not even sure when will it end. Initially the plan for holidays is to hit the gym with ah bao and ben but with the java cert, we have to give up on that plan.

Yesterday was my father-in-law birthday. We went to Crown Palace Restuarant to have our dinner and we ate a lot. I was like so bloated. This year he turned 50 years old and we(brother-in-laws, hubby and me) gave him a big big present. Lucky he like it, if not all of us would have been heart-broken with empty pockets.

^the "big big" present

Talking about phone. I am very pissed off with M1. For a couple of months they never send the bills to me hence I forgot about it as I am not using the M1 line, I was jus holding the line to wait for the contract to ends then cancel it. Never send me the bills never mind then came a lawyer letter and need to pay the overdue bills and on top of it the laywer fee. I was thinking save trouble, I do not wish to argue with them since I left 3 more months to end of contract then came another bills, $300! $300 for early termination which human beings with the right mind will pay $300 when at the first place I did not terminate my line and secondly now I only left one more month to the end of contract. Later I am going to call their customer service and who ever pick up the call, I'm sorry, you are gonna hear me scream.

Being a young mum

Feeling very emotional just now. I was watching a show on channel 8, it is a documentary show. The production group actually film 2 pair of parents-to-be right up to the birth of their child. One of the couple are young couple, think the guy is doing his NS while the girl is still studying in poly. I actually cried while watching it, tomorrow is the day where exactly 2 years ago I was in their shoes. Its not easy to give birth, the looks on both of the mother face just make me cried, they are so "wei da", all mothers are. Some who ever watched the show might said they looked ugly during labour but to me, that's the look of great sacrifice, courage and love. Guys will never understand the process.

Watching the 2 mother in labour really reminds me of my labour. I really regret not filming it on video cam because I do not know what actually happen down under me, haha, I only know I am in pain pain pain. My labour was more like the other mum not the young one as the young one opt for epidural(painkiller)while the older one chose not to so as to experience the whole process of giving birth. For those who do not know, if mummy opt for epidural which will be administrated around your lower spine they might not know when to push the baby out as they can't feel it due to the fact that their lower body will be numb. I chose to go "epiduraless" to experience the whole birth process and I never regret though the whole process is like hell but the "award" you get from this experience is priceless and there is no words to describe the moment you hold on and hug the "award".

It's seem like yesterday where I hold on to my "award". Watching the show, I felt so lucky that my labour only lasted 6 hours, the labour for both mum in the show lasted about 13hours. 6 hours to me is already like forever, can't imagine if my labour last 13 hours. You guys can read my birth story at ---> Birth Story. My baby will be 2 tomorrow and I am more excited than him... He is one of my greatest achievement in life, because of him, I am able to see my future, because of him, I am able to set my goals, because of him, I have tried to become a better person. He is my strength in life.

Being a young mum had never been easy for me but I am very lucky. Lucky to have my supporting family, my in-laws, they are one of the most wonderful people I ever met without their support, life would be even harder and of course my friends. With my hubby starting a good stable job, life had never been better. A few people had been asking me when will I think of a second baby, haha, if possible of course now, haha but I can't as 1. hubby just started working, let him settle in with his new job first, 2. I need to finsih my poly first, 3. need to buy a flat first 4. savings savings savings. So at the mean time I shall enjoy all my time with my precious, Kiern first. I love Kiern!!! Muacks!!!

Feeling very tired... Yes I had said I will post after exams but I just need somewhere to pour out my stress. Was feeling so stress that I couldn't sleep last night. In my whole mind I was so scared, keep thinking what if i can't get my A's. Guess I give myself too much pressure. Keep worrying the whole night, only able to catch my sleep around 5 plus. Even while studying I keep worrying about it that I cannot concentrate on my books. Then I thought why keep stressing myself? Why do I need my A's for? Why do I need to maintain my gpa at 3 and above? It's not as if I want to go to local uni. Even if I get the chance I couldn't as I have my other responsibility. I only wish to study a part time degree course. So why do I stress myself so much??? Do not wish to pressure myself anymore, as long as I pass all module I am happy enough. Yes I do not wish to stress myself with A's anymore. Whether I get into J2EE is all up to my own fate. All I wish is finish school fast and get a diploma, don't care whether got A's a not, I just want my certificate and for time to pass fast real fast. Basically this sem suck... so faster end better heck care about A's just want to end this sem fast and get my well deserve break.

Have been very busy with school works recently. No time to updates. Initially I was very busy with school project that I do not even have time to sleep and now I am busy with exams and my boy birthday party which will be held on this coming saturday.

Exams: I want to get all A's!!! So as to maintain my gpa as my VB and sem project might had pull me down. Especially my data structure, its a must to get A as I do not wish to go to .NET enterprise for various reasons. For those who have doubts that I will not make it to J2EE, I will prove you wrong...

I will post again probably after my exams, the last paper is on 28/08. So while I fight for my A's those who ponder my blog by chance, do come back later and take care :)